Dear
Radhya,
This
mother's day, I will be celebrating my first mother's day as a mom. In fact, this
is our first mother's day for it's you who made me a mother! Thus you are an
integral part of this celebration. It's been exact 10 months and 19 days that
you have come to this world. You have been part of everyone's life in our
family for the past 10 months and 19 days but you know what? - You were a part
of my life for extra 9 months. No one else had that opportunity except me. For
the whole 9 months, our heart beat together and you grew inside my womb ounce
by ounce. This is why you're even more special to me than to anyone else.
The
very first moment I held you in my hands, I've had the rollercoaster of the
emotions. Your warmth, your softness, your intimacy made me forget my pain. But
then I felt that sudden responsibility of motherhood in my head while not
knowing what to do next. I had so many questions going on in my head - Should I
watch you for a while? Should I breastfeed you? Should I cry over how cute you
are? Should I look at your cutest hands and feet and gulp back my tears?
After
we brought you home, I laid next to you and adored you. I was dying to see your
beautiful eyes and see you smile but you slept most of the times. Day by day,
month by month you grew up and I considered myself so lucky to have you in my
life and spend time with you. You have already filled my heart with so many
memories. I have laughed with your every laughs, I felt I have achieved
something whenever you reached your milestones every month. I have cried along
with you in your every pain - literally after every immunization shots!
After you reached six months, I had to get back to work. I cried because I had to accept that I won't be able to spend all my days with you and someone else got to spend those days with you. But I was convinced with the fact that I would still be at your side all the hours of night. I was there with you at 2AM when it was all dark outside and everyone else was asleep. I would wake up to your softest rumbling to soothe you. I was there every time during the night. I was with my baby when she needed me the most.
Soon
after, you will start to walk and you won't need me to carry you. You will
start eating yourself and you won't need me to feed you. You will sleep through
the night and you won't need me to soothe you and breastfeed you. You won't
need me to change your diapers and dress you. You will select your clothes
yourself. You will of course need me but you can do many things
on your own.
Your
life will soon be filled with so many people; family, friends, teachers,
classmates so we won't have much time when it's just you and I. So this
mother's day, our very first mother's day, I want to be with you. I won't care
about works I have to do, I won't care about the deadlines I have to meet. I
will just be with you. Right here, holding you tight. Just you and I.
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Oh my god....lovely words from heart😍😍great...keep it up✌✌
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